I have a total of three missed calls from him. After 391083021 years of not hearing from him. Alright, I exaggerated, but you get the gist. I do not want to be affected, but it never quite work out that way – I just tend to be affected no matter what.

And it really sucks because I do not want to, yet I cannot help what I am feeling. Good thing that I am no longer than badly affected this time around. Just semi-affected, if I am even making any sense.

Once upon a time, there was a girl who always thought that the simple life she wanted was to do a 3-year degree, take up accounting perhaps, and then eventually get a cpa affiliate program before moving on in a rather uneventful life. Office job, steady income and perhaps a couple of holidays overseas.

Her life did not quite turn out that way. She is actually working the best ever profession one could ever think of – it is just more than saving lives. It is one which brings much more meaning. Ever.

Dare guess what is it?

Music has always been my weakest point. Never mind my singing out of tune in church. Never mind my tone deaf. I love music, nevertheless. I make no apologies for that.

My journey started when I was barely 4. I started learning playing the piano. It was a very poor attempt. I switched four piano teachers and by 15, I gave up because I realised it was not only futile, it was expensive and I was not gaining much.

Did I also mention that my mum sold off the piano when I was on my one-month vacation post secondary school in New Zealand?

I had several other attempts too. The Hart Dynamics Drums, the acoustic guitar (perhaps three times?) – You do not have to enquire into my success rate.

I failed them all.

I thought that I have found a good friend. Maybe I really did but I had too much of expectation in the relationship. When you have such high expectation for a relationship, be it friendship or love or anything….such high expectations will bring only disappointments.

I thought I was a good friend, maybe I am not. I am just a person, a bypasser in one’s life. Someone who come to know me as me and then that is it. There is no continuation from there.

Am I making any sense?

In life, we meet so many people…and only few can make those great changes in your life! Am I one of those people who you just come across or am I the ones who make the change in your life?

Anyway, some of the girls are suggesting to get this certain product after reading about xomax reviews as one of the wedding games!
I have a feeling I should stay far from this….just in case I get disappointed again.

Could it be me who has always been feeling so inferior? Is there something wrong with me?

busy-ness……no time to update my blog, nor do I have time to actually keep fit. I feel as if there is a worm..or maybe more than one worm in my stomach…I am always hungry…always eating…then becoming hungry again.

If this continues, I seriously will need get some help! Some suggested free website builder for me, to keep my blog going on…but this isnt the main problem. Building a website can take up alot of time but honestly, I am enjoying every single moment of it. Creating my ideal blog or web page can be a joy!

Ok, I shall stop bubbling and get something done!

Just got myself a great audio racks! It would be a perfect gift for my friend’s wedding but how can they bring it all the way back to Sarikei? Or how can I bring it all the way to Germany?

Two of my best friends are getting married in just a month! One next week, another in a month’s time! Getting them gifts is more than a headache! Or am I considering too much? I want to get something practical and meaningful for them.

I guess I need to put in more heart!

My readers, you are free to give your suggestions! ^^

I’ve been on the PM shift for this past 2 days..making me feel like very shabby because I’ve been sleeping late into the days and waking up just in time for work! Geez,,,totally unhealthy!

And today, i have to do premeds for tomorrow’s cases. And not to mention oncall on Saturday! Meaning I am leaving meeps behind, alone at home! =((

Hope this kind of life can change soon!